We had a rough go of it at first. Holly was told what was going on at the SWI and told them she was excited. She came with all of her stuff neatly packed in a couple of bags and the backpack we sent her. She looked nervous and confused, and obviously we didn't look exactly like our pictures, so, she immediately rejected us. She kept saying no and pulling back from us, and I was not about to push it. I had Tim come over and when the orphanage director told her this was her baba, she reached out and hugged him. It was so sweet, and we have it on camera. She was having nothing to do with me except to show me things, like the pictures she drew and her very special panda. She also was clutching the build a bear bunny we had sent, fully dressed in the jammies and slippers we had sent it in. I pulled out a light up necklace that we brought in a new pink backpack, and she pulled out the necklace that was already tucked into her shirt. It
was the same one that she had on in all the pictures we have of her, and the Nanny said it was a gift from her Foster Grandmother. How sweet, she treasures it and apparently never is with out it. Every time the director or the Nanny showed her pictures of us, she looked curiously at us, and it was so clear that we weren't real to her. She was more taken with Tim and Matthew though, so I went with that and encouraged more interaction. At one point she actually looked at Tim and said Daddy. He didn't catch it, so I told him she just said Daddy, and she heard me and smiled. She enjoyed it when Matthew showed her herself on the video camera.
The director and the Nanny were telling her how she was going home with us, and that we were mamma and daddy. She said she didn't want to. The guide, Eric, told her we would take her shopping and buy her snacks, any snacks she wants. She bold face told him in Chinese, pointing to her backpack, I have cookies. A very smart little lady.
Then it was time to say good bye to the director and the head nanny, and at that Holly melted down. She cried hard when they tried to tell her what was going to happen next, and refused the whole idea. At that she went around and picked up all the things she had showed us, including the photo album we had sent her of our family, and tucked them all furiously into her backpack, and a little pink bag that they had put the extra items in, including her panda bear. She marched away, and when the registrar came out and told her she had to stay, she flipped out, swung her bunny at her, and yelled no in Chinese over and over. The director and Nanny had snuck out by then, and when she saw that they were gone she just wept. She kept calling out what sounded like mama nanny.
We gathered her stuff and left, Eric holding her hand. When we got outside, Eric thought we could just walk to the market and she would calm down. Nope, she wanted to take off, and was pulling away. I could see a disaster coming, so, I said we needed to just take her back to the hotel room and give her some down time with us. I told Tim he should just pick her up, when he did, she stiffened buy she actually let him. She was still crying and Matthew and I climbed in the seat behind Tim and Holly so they could just sit to gether.
For most of the drive she was crying and saying the same thing over and over. We asked Eric what it was and he said she was saying she wanted to go to sleep. I had Tim say OK, and after a time or two, with him stroking her face and talking softly to her, she calmed down and sat watching the world go by as we navigated through the Wuhan traffic. When we got to the hotel, Tim carried her up to the room, and she just quietly observed. We got to the room, and Tim felt she might sleep if he stayed there with her while matthew and I went with Eric to a market to get some supplies. She allowed me to unbutton her coat, and I took Tim's coat off for him so she could see that he was ok with me. Well, when we got back they weren't sleeping. Holly had apparently gotten comfortable enough to get into pretty much everything in the suitcases, especially the snacks. She had proceeded to fill her pockets. When I peeked at her, and said what did
you find, she chattered at me in Chinese, with a big smile and showed me all her treasures.
We unloaded things, and Matthew was trying to get her to see the treats he helped pick out, and all she would do is shove them in her pockets. It was clear to me that she wasn't unpacking, that's for sure. She kept all her stuff together. I decided to try to put one of the new doll outfits on her bunny. she looked unapprovingly at it and promptly took it off and tossed it away. She was opening up more and more, but, still standoffish where I was concerned. She couldnt figure out how to drink from the sippy cup straw, so I showed her and she was pretty happy about that. She even shared her fruit bar with me.
I decided to just be bold and took off the sweater she had on to help her cool down some, and revealed that she had a pair of pajamas on underneath. Then it was time to go potty and she let me take her and she handled a western toilet like a pro.
We ordered noodles for her from room service and we had hamburgers and fries. She sat on Tim's lap and ate, and shared his fries and he fed her noodles. So cute, I took pictures and she gave big smiles.
Now she's happily playing and enjoying Matthew's attempts at speaking to her in Chinese. Some of it she gets, but, her dialect is very different.
So, now we'll see what the night brings.
Teri (50) in Utah, dh Tim (51)
Seven homegrown kids John 32, Jessica 28, James 23, Katie 20, Minuet 18,and Matthew 14, Myleigh YiXin 7 years old,and our sweet Nick who passed away far too soon at the tender age of 20 years old.
In China bringing home Huang FuJun/soon to be Holly Jun Nicole, 5 years old.
Congratulations! Your days is what I expect ours to be like at the end of the month when we meet our 7yr old. Praying for all of you.
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This is a difficult age, she knows what is going on. Allowing her, as you are doing, time to grieve and not pushing it, is the best thing you are doing. I hope to see pictures soon!!! Congratulations, it gets better, day by day. My daughter also bonded and felt safer with my husband. It is but a small matter in the scheme of things. She will come to regard you with great love as time goes by.
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